Tuesday

LILITH DEMON



Lilith the Queen of the Sitra Ahra, the Demoness of this Universe who rebelled against the Creator or so the story goes. Lilith is also known as the first wife to Adam who refused to obey and lie beneath her husband, if this union of marriage was not meant to be on equal ground then Lilith had no reason to stick around. As she yearns for her consort Samael her lust burns for him, she waits, she fantasizes about riding his thick cock desiring his lips to quench hers. Her yearning and desire for this demon God is too long for Lilith's lust is like fire.

Yet let's not forget if Lilith seduced men to produce demon children for her, then those children who have been born, are born with preconditions which behaviors could be violent. As for Lilith's in her nature of violent behavior, evil thoughts, and wicked intentions. She will know the minds of men and how to seduce them in their sleep. Lilith is the mother of Demonic children and every day she has hundreds of them, so she must fornicate with those men who have lustful thoughts. Men who are weak to the woman, to Lilith and her beauty, the smell of her keeps them vulnerable to desire her. Lilith has long shiny hair, her eyes are dark green, and shapely lips that kiss a man so gently from head to toe seducing him with her mouth, and her eyes with the smell of her Yoni. Lilith's lips are soft but taste like strawberries. Lilith is a seducer of men as their mind becomes hypnotized, his body will become weak and the flesh is an appetizer to Lilith while you sleep.

Lilith is the whore, she can cause miscarriages, and abortions, and she doesn't approve of loving happy families. As she deeply yearns for her consort Samael she finds herself fornicating with men all day long, his scent, his lust burns for her, two Demonic Angels that need each other.

As Lilith reads the minds of lonely men during this act of fornication while they sleep she steals their sperm to keep producing children. Lilith and her sister Naamah can never quench their thirst as I too understand that feeling of lust between a woman's legs while desiring a man with a ten-inch cock thrusting in and out, back and forth, quenching my inner walls with lust and vibration only to drip love juice all down the legs.

Many Occultists will interchangeably use Samael and Lucifer as being one of the same I don't care to do that I rather keep them separate. Samael is the first Archeon also known as Yaltaboth to the creator, but Lucifer came much later. However, I have no doubt Lucifer will lust and desire Lilith as her passion burns for her lovers to fornicate with her as she can't satisfy the sexual hunger that dwells deep in her soul.

Many women desire a man to fornicate with us that can bring that desire, that passion as sexual conquests is the aphrodisiac of life. As Hekate created Lucifer with her flesh, Lucifer created man with his blood, which I theorize might have been the beginning of the human race and all of us are the descendants of CAIN!

SATAN DEVIL OR MYTH?

                                                                                                          Tasa Raimi Laris Satan

Satan, also known as the Devil or Lucifer, is a figure that appears in various religious and mythological traditions. In Christianity, Satan is often depicted as a fallen angel who rebelled against God and was cast out of heaven. He is seen as the embodiment of evil and temptation, working to lead humans away from God and toward sin. In Islamic tradition, Satan, known as Iblis, refused to bow down to Adam and was away from the path of righteousness. In other mythological traditions, Satan is often portrayed as a trickster figure or a symbol of rebellion against authority. He is sometimes associated with themes of chaos, darkness, and the underworld. I've never invoked or evoked Satan so I wouldn't know of any similarities or differences between Lucifer and Satan I just can't see them as one and the same. To me, they give the impression of very different archetypes, or Demons if you prefer. I view or see Satan to be the same malevolent as Sorath where whereas Lucifer's power is strong, it gives me the impression it's tests, learning, and lessons, not punishment the way I see Satan to be, at least when I hear the name. Let's view what S. Connolly thinks. So far she views Satan as a sge wise man with Silver hair and black eyes. His eyes have been described as seeing nothing and seeing all. 

Satan is seen as an agent subservient to God, typically regarded as a metaphor for the "yetzer hara", or evil inclination. In Christianity and Islam, he is usually seen as a fallen angel or jinn who has rebelled against God, who nevertheless allows him temporary power over the fallen world and a host of demons. In the Quran, Shaitan, also known as Iblis, is an entity made of fire who was cast out of heaven because he refused to bow before the newly created Adam and incites humans to sin by infecting their minds with "evil suggestions". What do you think about Satan? How do you perceive him as, or is he mere fiction for Christian lies?

Saturday

NOSFERATU, VAMPIRE SON OF THE DEVIL


Nosferatu, the undead, lives and breathes and walks between the worlds, Nosferatu is everywhere, it can be your best friend, a relative, a stranger, or a vampire whose only purpose is to take from the living and feed. The character of the vampire has been a prominent figure in folklore, literature, and popular culture for centuries. In fiction, vampires are often depicted as immortal beings who subsist on the blood of the living to sustain themselves. They are typically portrayed as charismatic, seductive, and powerful creatures with supernatural abilities such as superhuman strength, speed, and the ability to shape-shift. Vampires are often associated with darkness, the night, and the macabre, and are commonly depicted as nocturnal beings who avoid sunlight and are vulnerable to garlic, crosses, and wooden stakes through the heart. In reality, the concept of vampires has its roots in various cultures and mythologies around the world, with different beliefs and traditions shaping the characteristics and behaviors of these creatures. While there have been historical accounts of individuals who were believed to be vampires or exhibited vampiric traits, such as a preference for blood or an aversion to sunlight, the existence of real-life vampires remains a subject of debate and skepticism.

Let's look at a different perspective of everyday humans who take from us, (vampires) our energy is just as vital to every human who needs to get through their day living on this mundane existence, just as it is taking our blood. The whole point of Vampires taking our blood is to transform another life into a Vampire to grow the legions, to grow in numbers, so their kind will be strong and live on feeding off the living. However, when people with problems and negative intentions, come into our lives, they automatically suck up our energy from us, as their personal problems dwell in the air seeking solutions from us. As some people, not all generally the kindest souls this will happen to them as those humans know who they use and who they can't. Eventually, we will find ourselves in a bitter-sweet situation with the person we're dealing with, but it won't end well, it never does. As people take from our energy, it depletes us from feeding ourselves of vitamins and natural nutrients we need to get through our lives. These kinds of toxic relationships regardless of who they are with, are a waste of time, a waste of our energy. People too can be vampires without the bite on the neck or drinking of the blood, so be aware of those relationships. You won't realize it until its too late, but if you feel not good in a relationship then its time to get out.

Friday

SAMAEL AND LILITH LOVERS

Dark Angel Samael and Demon Goddess Lilith


Lilith's beauty is like no other, she has long hair, red and sometimes brown blazing in coils of beaten copper wire with jewels of Egypt. From her parted lips dripped scarlet juice of the pomegranate. Lilith's eyes are two large emerald waves of the sea that caught the blood of the setting sun upon their crest. White her teeth with the whiteness of the snow on the distant mountain, white her breasts on the pallor of morning mists that linger in the valley. During the nights when a man is troubled in his mind, Lilith will appear just as she has to Lamech, but no other man or spirit can compare to the love she has for Samael. Samael is the son of the creator, the angel with the light so deep in his soul, he is unaware of his own divinity. Lilith and Samael share a love like no other, they are two separate beings, but with one mind and one soul, they can share in the same body or separate themselves. For any man mortal or not one gaze upon Lilith and he will be filled with desire, this is the power of her essence, her scent, her beauty. Man would lay beside her just to touch her, man would lay in his own defilement, to have her lips touch his and to place his hands on her hips feeling Lilith thrust herself back and forth in ecstasy, moaning with pleasure. Yet, it is Samael the first Archon born that Lilith loves, Samael has won the heart of the demon Goddess and Lilith has devoted herself to being with her Lord in his kingdom.

Samael is the Consort to Lilith and Lilith is the Whore of the Sitra Ahra and the Consort to her Prince
Samael was born out of envy, as his mother was jealous of Geradamas, Barbello sparked a child to be in her womb against the creator's wishes, and because of this her child was born with a lion head and the body of a serpent, the creator will never acknowledge this child as his own. Yet, it doesn't matter, this jealous God can manifest into many faces from his own will. As for Lilith, she is the sun that rises and the moon that shines at night. The night owl that screeches with sexual pleasure. Samael and Lilith are one being and can be separate beings of the night, of the darkness. It is their love that carries power together. Samael created Lilith and she is imperfect just as her maker is incomplete. In outward shape, the beauty of Lilith was like that of the first mother, but inwardly Lilith was unfulfilled. Lilith was ignorant of her weakness and believed herself to be Queen of all creation for this is what Samael told her as he went with her up and down the land and showed her his kingdom. Her emptiness engendered lust and the need to be filled, and the same lust kindled in Samael when he looked upon her nakedness. Lilith embraced the first Archon and was transformed into a serpent even as he was a serpent. And for this Samael is the "slant serpent" and Lilith is the "convolute serpent".

These two angels of love and lust can not be without each other for their love is true and their desires go unfulfilled burning with passion and lust as the dragon coils between them churning their flesh into each other and their need for fornication. This dragon between the two, its blind will was bent on desire. Yet it was Autogene who disapproved and had his angel slay the dragon between Samael and Lilith as they both screamed out, now they wander alone without each needing the other. Now alone and separate Samael lay incomplete and his consort Lilith, his image in the flames shares his defect. Both were in emotional pain but their love continued to burn like fire until they found a way to be as one.

Samael and Lilith their Lust burns like Fire

Sunday

BLACK WIDOW WEAVER OF THE COSMOS


Injustice and Chaos have manifested and turned into beastality on earth. Man has become his own plague of disaster and disgrace. The Gods have watched and observed for decades man's greed and filth of human destruction, war crimes, plagues against humanity, destruction of the planet, and killing of wildlife. The earth was given to man to flourish, to live, and to procreate, but the white man is the problem of all societies his insecure behavior has poisoned all cultures. This insolence of men with their greed and sexual abuse against children must come to an end as the oligarchies' arrogance continues to be his blind fate he will not see the Black Widow coming. Arachane the sister to the Black Widow both venomous spider Queens has watched and planned to dismantle man and his corruption, the lowest of animals that he has become. His lack of appreciation for life and love will no longer be tolerated.

The Black Widow is most venomous, she is quiet in her approach, as she walks through the darkness her mind is multi-thinking, but she plans carefully before striking and killing her victim because hearing the torture of the victim is more pleasing and sexually arouses this poisonous spider. The Black Widow spins her web through the cosmos, each string of web has deadly crystals sprinkled all along each strand no human eye can detect. If any human touches her web the crystals will stick to the human skin and as you try to pull off the web, the crystals will cut you deep causing you to bleed deep within. You can't escape from these deadly cobwebs as they crystalize into the skin, which is why the body begins to bleed. The crystals are like glass cutting the human body deep until you bleed out. You won't see the Black Widow coming, she can be in your dreams, taunting your fears, you might find her in your car eyeballing you because she enjoys watching you squirm with fear. Can you smell her? She can smell you and she will eat you when she is done.

The Black Widow has a particular vaginal scent, her order can be sweet no man can deny, but it's a trap to lure him closer to her, as she sits and watches you, waiting for you to come close into contact, is when she strikes her tentacle at your face, tearing at your eyes as you scream with pain you become blind. The Black Widow will leave you screaming in pain and fear only to crawl on your face and suffocate your sounds. She has no pity for you, her only intent and desire is to watch you suffer. However, this Spider woman is more than just blackhearted she has talent too. Oh yes, when she fornicates her sound is like a sweet violin playing in the background. A nice melody of love and conquer.

The Black Widow's throne is within the Sitra Ahra, her temple sits at the crown of the deep vast darkness no man can reach and her demons, guard her entrance to her sacred tome. Close your eyes and let me take you into the Labyrinths of the Black Widow. This universe has many realms, and many other universes, as the Spider Queen sits on her throne, you must assimilate deep in your mind to imagine her, she is power, blackness, nothingness and love all at the same time, she can be extremely cruel and her only love is to eat you, alive. As you travel, it's very dark, it's black in fact only glimpses of light spark for a brief moment here and there, as you fly through the cosmos time does not exist but the movement is very fast. So fast you can't determine how fast you are moving through space, now you are here at the entrance to the Spider Queen and the Black Widow. These two demon Queens are sisters and yet one at the same time, they possess many faces and can change into other spiders.

Arachana is known by many names and there are over 50,000 species of spiders in the world, but in the void, in the blackness only the Weaver of the Web sits on the throne within the Sitra Ahra. She is privileged to be the Spider Queen who will drive a man to madness, drink your blood until your body shrivels, and take your life force from you, all in a matter of seconds. Never underestimate the force and power of the Black Widow. She is not called a widow of Black for nothing. She enjoys watching you suffer, but any lessons you are taught are from pure love. Now at the entrance, her demon guards are the three-headed beasts, yes the same beasts of Queen of Witchcraft are guarded by, Cerebus. 

Watch your step use your eyes as you step into the tomb of the Black Widow the walls are dark with deep crevices and blood dripping and some semen from victims that have been tortured. The floor is covered with debris and appears like a boneyard of sacrifice. As you approach her she sits watching you with all eight eyes, her eyes can see from all corners of her tomb, so don't try to fool this venomous Queen, she breathes heavily waiting for you to make a mistake that gives her permission to strike at your face only to wrap you up tight into her web. As Black Widow always needs to feed her appetite of human flesh of man and her sexual appetite will tear you apart limb by limb as she drinks your sexual fluids to feed her children that need to be birthed. Standing in this tomb the air is fog and mist, heavy making it hard to breathe, her eyes are now red, piercing at your face, as you stand in fear, now pissing in your pants you've just urinated in her tomb. The foul scent of this has angered the "Black Widow", you can't run, you're trapped! 

Monday

NAAMAH SUCCUBUS



Naamah, according to certain religious and mythological texts, is described as the sister of Tubal-Cain. While the specific characteristics and representations of Naamah may vary depending on the source, she is often associated with various symbolic meanings. In some traditions, Naaman is depicted as a figure of beauty, wisdom, and creativity. She is often seen as a symbol of feminine power and divine inspiration. Naamah's association with Tubal-Cain, who is known for his skills in metalworking and craftsmanship, suggests that she may also represent artistic and creativity. Additionally, Naamah is sometimes associated with sensuality and fertility, embodying the aspects of feminism related to love, passion, and procreation. This aspect of her representation highlights her connection to the cycles of life and the natural world.

The relationship between Tubal-Cain and Naamah is often described in religious and mythological texts. They are commonly depicted as siblings, with Tubal-Cain being Naamah's brother. Their relationship is often portrayed as one of mutual support and collaboration. Tubal-Cain is known for his skills in metalworking and craftsmanship, while Naamah is associated with beauty, wisdom, and creativity. It is believed that they shared their knowledge and expertise with each other, contributing to their individual and collective growth. Their connection symbolizes the harmony between different aspects of human endeavor. Tubal-Cain's craftsmanship and Naamah's creative inspiration complemented each other, representing the fusion of practical skills and artistic expression. Naamah and Lilith are both figures that appear in various ways in religious and mythological texts, but they have distinct characteristics and roles.

Let it be said, in the midrash that mentions the marriage of Naamahm sister of Tubal-Cain, to Noah, the sages also give two seemingly contradictory origins of Naamah's name. Some believe that the name was given to her because all her deeds were pleasant, while others interpret her name as "she would beat on a drum to draw people to idol worship". Another midrash states that Naamah was so beautiful that she was responsible for the incident mentioned in Genesis 6, "The sons of God saw that the daughters of humans were beautiful, and they took wives for themselves, whoever they chose". Naamah was one of the daughters of humans that caused the angels to descend to earth and fornicate with them.

Similarities:
1) Mythological Figures: Both Naamah and Lilith are considered mythological figures, often associated with ancient religious and cultural traditions.
2) Feminine Power: Both Naamah and Lilith are often depicted as powerful female figures, representing aspects of feminism that challenge traditional gender roles and expectations.
3) Symbolic Meanings: Both Naamah and Lilith carry symbolic meanings beyond their individual stories, representing various aspects of feminism, sensuality, and independence.

Differences:
1) Origins: Naamah is often associated with biblical and mythological narratives, while Lilith has origins in ancient Mesopotamian mythology and later appears in Jewish folklore.
2) Roles: Naamah is often portrayed as a sister, wife, or mother figure, associated with beauty, wisdom, and creativity. In contrast, Lilith is often depicted as a depicted as a rebellious and independent figure, associated with themes of sexuality, darkness, and defiance. Lilith and Naamah are both defiant as demons.
3) Cultural Interpretations and depictions of Naamah and Lilith can vary across different cultural and religious contexts. Their characteristics and roles may differ depending on the specific traditions and sources they are found in.

The Zohar describes Naamah as a fallen angel and one of the wives of Samael. The name Naamah could be translated as pleasure or pleasant. She is viewed as a Goddess, divination, and art and is one of the four demons of sacred prostitution. In the esoteric tradition, Naamah has a deep connection with the North and Earth elements. She is the gatekeeper to the other side, "Sitra Ahra". She is the matron goddess of every wild thing in the world and rules the Qlipha on the Tree of the Night. Legenda describes her as a Succubus, a Vampire who hunts men in their dreams drinking their vital essences and having vicious intercourse with her victims. In other legends, she helped Lilith to stalk Adam when he was separated from Eve after Cain murdered Abel. This unholy union gave birth to the Plagues of Humanity. Naamah is the Queen of Vampires and Werewolves. In many visions, she appears with ghouls and shadows in creepy places like cemeteries and caverns where death rules. This demon can be vicious and if you choose to work with her and face your inner urgencies and dark wishes from our mundane life she will grant them to you, but if you fail you won't reach spiritual achievement, if you do pass she will ignite the spark of divinity in you.

Thursday

THE BLACK VOID OF NOTHINGNESS

In the beginning was Ain, the nothingness of Divinity in its Fullness of Emptiness, its Unbound non-being, and the eternal Nihility of Holiness. This Ain sits outside the Tree of Life and Death it is and remains the VOID of the Supreme of Unlimited and Unrestricted Potential realized by Not Coming Into Being by Remaining Unknown and Indistinctive. Want to understand more read Sitra Ahra about the birth of Creation. The Black Void is the true place of Hell, which has many Gateways, but what is Hell? I'm not exactly sure because when living on this mundane existence can at times feel like Hell. Hell to me is an experience when crossing the Abyss (also known as the Phoenix Rite) and the loss of your Ego being torn down. Through the blackest corridors on the Tree of Death and through the Tunnels of Set every experience per human is different and I'm unsure of all that can occur once you accomplish this great task. However, the VOID is made up of many realms there are many other universes beyond the Cosmos.

Realms man can not reach by spaceship or shooting a drome in the darkness beyond the veils of time, nor can man see with his eyes. You must use your mind to connect with the Gods so they may give you the gift of seeing beyond a human eye. The realms of Hell are deeply connected to the Alien El of Thoughtlessness, but for now, let's explore the aspects of the Void and how we as Humans can connect to the darkness within us. One aspect is the Weaver of the Web as the archetype of the Void is an exploration of darkness. Sepheranz is the weaver of the web that lies deep within the walls of Hell and can teach us those harsh lessons we sometimes run from. Further aspects to explore is every single sphere on the Tree of Death, a suggestion is to begin with the Tree of Life. The dark realms on the Tree of Death (knowledge) are of Hate and pure blackness as it will be ripping your Ego as you must first die before you can be reborn.

Do not expect the journey to be kind it will take you far and your life will be extremely difficult with stress and strains. Do not become a victim to it, you must learn to navigate through the dark waters. It can be very harsh in the smallest of doses. Do you ever wonder why life can feel heavy and confusing? It's supposed to as humans we live in a Karmic cycle here on Earth. Creation began in the void in pure darkness at times I wonder if souls might linger there after death for whatever reason? The dark vortex of black energy is where the darkest magic can be found connecting us to Hekate and Lucifer. Some speculate the void is where the Atlanteans obtained the raw power they needed, without restrictions which led them into beastality and eventually cataclysmic events.

The concepts of Ain, Ain Soph, and Ain Soph Aur originate from Kabbalah, a mystical tradition within Judaism. These terms represent different stages of aspects of the divine existence. Ain, the first stage can be translated as "nothingness" or "non-being." It represents the absolute transcendence of the divine, beyond any human comprehension or description. Ain is often associated with the unknowable essence of God, existing before any manifestation or creation. Ain Soph, the second stage, can be translated as "limitless" or "without end." It signifies the infinite potential and boundless nature of the divine. Ain Soph is the stage where the divine begins to manifest and expand yet it remains formless and undefined. It represents the divine begins energy that permeates all existence, yet is still beyond human comprehension. 

Ain Soph Aur, the third stage can be translated as "limitless" light" or "endless radiance". It represents the divine light that emerges from the formless potential of Ain Soph. Ain Soph Aur is associated with the creative force that brings forth the universe and all its manifestations. It is the stage where the divine energy begins to take shape and become accessible to human perception. In summary, Ain represents the unknowable essence of God, Ain Soph represents the infinite potential and boundless nature of the divine, and Ain Soph Aur represents the divine light and creative force that forth the universe. The concepts are deeply rooted in Kabbalistic philosophy and provide a framework for understanding the nature of the divine existence.

As for the realms of Hell which are deeply connected to the Alien El of Thoughtlessness, but for now, let's explore the aspects of the Void and how we as humans can connect to the darkness within us if we dare to do so. One aspect is the weaver of the Web as the archetype of the void and how we as humans can connect to the darkness within us if we dare to do so. One aspect is the Weaver of the Web as the archetype of the void is an exploration of darkness she is the weaver of the web that lies deep within the walls of Hell and can teach us those harsh lessons we sometimes run from. Further aspects would be to explore each sphere on the Tree of Death. The adversary, but I believe it would be best to begin with the Tree of Life. The Dark realms on the Tree of Death (knowledge) are of Hate and Blackness, ripping your EGO because you must die before you can be reborn. Do not expect the journey to be kind, it will take you far and your life will be extremely difficult with stress and strains. Do not become a victim of it. Learn to navigate through these dark waters. It can be very harsh in the smallest doses.

Friday

THE FEMININE VOID

The Feminine Void is a dark and mysterious unknown den of shadow and light. Why I call it the "feminine void" is because everything begins with birth and the female sex. Everything and everyone is because women have created this world, this life, it's because of us that it exists. Our dark void is a female sex and the complexities of the female mind. The side of us that is a warrior, that can give life and take life. The side of us that desire our femininity and sexuality. Our void is the cave a man wants to enter because he needs to so he can call himself a man. Yet women have control over this and man never does, unless he rapes you and only then its about power.

Women are the only ones who can deliver the egg or in this case another singular birth, other than the sea horse or on those rare occasions twins. This den we own pulsates consecrations mixed with blood that flows through the walls of the womb and begins to form life as we know it in human form, but it's not all of who we are. I support abortion because I  prefer to encourage women to think more of themselves than procreating being the only answer to your life's purpose.

My thoughts of the "feminine void" mean more than just procreating and multiplying, frankly, women should step back and take a look at themselves in a different light. See yourself as a powerful being with a mind that is creative, who dreams, believes in herself, and can figure out complex problems with patience. Our womb is a dark place, but man only seeks to conquer what he wants to dominate and control or entertain himself with. Men and women will never be equal, because of the many influences and misdirections. However, it's best to see yourself as more than just an object forfeiting your life for sacrifices that only you will be willing to make. One person always takes more responsibility than the other. You could have sex with a Demon with Naamah or Lilith.

So while we are on the subject of "self-love" or we should be, let's begin with meditation every morning, take out at least 30 minutes, and focus your mind on a goal or desire you want to accomplish, see yourself committing to these goals daily one by one as you accomplish them. 

Take as long as needed you should not rush at all this can't be done in 30 minutes no it may take months even years. The point is to work on yourself daily to achieve those goals, now you will cross many obstacles, it's up to you how to handle those problems, but remember at the end of the day, it's about you, no one else regardless of your family situation. The truth is kids grow up and hopefully move away and the husband if you have one, is only focused on himself and work. It's okay to enjoy your own company and put yourself first but if you are single all the better to reach your goals.

This is more of desire than a goal and of course, I'm not encouraging anyone to cheat however, let's say your husband can't satisfy you sexually, and you have a lover who can if you can permit this arrangement to fulfill a goal without emotion, more power to you. It's important to know who you are and what you want as life is short and people will always be disappointed. Then why not be selfish? If you know using your sexuality to get what you want out of someone do it.

Now the point of the mediation is to stay on track and focus on where you want to be at a certain time in your life. The intention here is to recreate your own reality and change your life to be about your needs because as you grow older as a woman if you don't think of yourself, no one will and you will lose sense of who you are. You are a woman with needs and desires, fantasies there is nothing wrong with fulfilling those needs. My point to this is to think of yourself first, there is nothing wrong with being selfish. If you are already married and have kids then redirect your life and start making time for yourself. Your needs as a woman matter do it now before it's too late. Nothing is more complex than a woman's psyche and no man will ever understand it. This universe is created on feminine energy.

Thursday

DARK CROOKED PATH

I never thought I would find myself so intrigued with the darker aspects of this universe, but I am. I believe many people usually are when they first begin to read about witchcraft. Well, I guess it's best to give this journey a title and call it the "Dark Crooked Path". A journey of secrets and mysteries to discover and of course it's different for everyone, I would imagine it's due to how we are feeling and seeing the world at the time we begin to initiate ourselves on this dark voyage. One night I awoke in fright from a dream I was having, it seemed so real, and now I know it's lucid dreaming, this happened once before when I was a kid. I do dream a lot nearly every night but most dreams I can't recall what they were about. When Todd was sick in the hospital I had one of the most bizarre lucid dreams I'll never forget, but a spirit was over me as I lay in my bed I could actually feel the weight of its large paws denting into the mattress, that's how heavy this beast was. It was trying to do something to me and all I could hear was my own voice yelling NO, NO! The next thing I knew I had awoken and it was nearly 1:30 in the afternoon.

Only two women I've come across have mentioned the floodgate of spirits coming through when performing a ritual, most male practitioners never talk about this subject, maybe it's their ego that refuses to mention it. Yet it's very real as I have encountered I opened the door and the floodgate of spirits came rushing in. It's best to let them know from the start who is in charge and how they are not welcome, only those spirits or Gods you choose to work with.

There was a time when I wanted to reach out to Belial and I asked Hekate first out of respect to allow me to call upon him, as I needed his help. She was there, her green essence was floating in the air, interestingly enough, no other spirits that I could sense were in the room. I assume they do know who the Queen is and have to respect that moment to not interfere. I do wonder what am I doing as I walk this crooked path? What is my purpose? I feel everyone needs a purpose or two. I guess for now I'll work at learning and experiencing every moment I can to reach my goal of "transformation", this will be my purpose.

Let me share a few interesting moments growing up because something gave me an impression as I called on the spiritual energy I have encountered so far. Only that they must have been waiting for me all along. Some interesting facts I can recall as a child I believe have led me to this moment in my life seeking and desiring transformation. As a child my favorite books I still have today are "Frog and Toad", I was always attracted to skulls and serpents. My father once kept a snake and I would go with him to the pet store as he purchased mice for it to eat, but I hated watching the poor mouse get devoured, so I stuck my hand in its cage and grabbed the mouse, releasing it into the hill in our yard. Of course, being only a child I didn't stop to think it died as it was a domestic mouse. Even now I have a stuffed toy frog I can't recall where I got it. Only for a short time did I have a real one and watch him grow but when I moved I had to give him away to the frog farm, that was a sad day. I loved that little guy.

As the color purple is my signature color and interestingly enough the "purple people" were the "descendants of Cain". from what I read, who later invaded the Jews and Egyptians during the Ugartic Times. I've been learning and calmly leaning into my aggressive energies to find balance. My fears have faded away because they no longer serve my life and my courage has increased. I'm changing and it's all a part of walking this Dark Crooked Path. When you work at yourself to improve your thinking, allowing your soul to perceive change, you discover a new you. It's important to increase and continue this change and keep a steady balance while exploring the magical path.

My emotions have found a new courage and for that, I won't allow them to be stuck in this material that is infected with shit. There is a dream I had months ago but I could see myself, I was so far out in space and I was looking down at the planet Earth. It too felt like a lucid dream. it was incredible I truly felt myself far out in space in the dark and looking at a huge ball, a planet I was no longer a part of. It was amazing truly amazing. It was time to invoke Hekate and walk beside her on this crooked path. I want to discover the true origins of witchcraft as it can't be learned by a YouTube video, only by spirit guides and the Queen herself. I am confident I have nothing to fear, but excited I have so much to discover.