DARK WOOD TAROT

One of my favorite decks is "Dark Wood Tarot" I decided to pull it out of my collection to work with the deck and create a new journal. I enjoy creating journals and it's been a while. This deck speaks to my shadow and my spirit knows the inner workings of my mind and the thoughts running through my head. Each card I pulled had great relevance to my thoughts. The last two nights gave me a deep insight into my feelings but I will just reveal a few things on the cards expressed with little interpretation. As I can't discuss my deepest thoughts here.

So let us begin with the Ten of Swords lately I've seen this card repeating itself several times within other decks and I can say I've recognized people in their 40's have a very negative attitude about themself and the people around them, which they subject their negative behaviors onto other people. It's best to avoid these people because they need to work on themselves. it's baggage that is being revealed of how they feel about themselves.

​This is true of anyone including myself, people suffer a lot with negative feelings during this time in their life, and it's a test for them to recognize it and make a change. What happens during this time is all the feelings of resentment and anguish from the past have built up over the years and the mind is troubled because people don't know how to release this anger deep within the soul. It stocks piles on a person but I believe for me when I went through the most troubled waters, I was tested to stand against the black waters and to navigate through hard times. As I've mentioned before, I called upon Hekate and began to give myself to her during this time because it was her that helped me navigate those dark waters.

Now sometimes the Ten of Swords will bring numerous events at the same time and that is a test of our will to get through it. Eventually as you realize what you need to do for yourself everything will shift and change and bring you back to calmer waters. Most of these feelings are linked to the Ego especially if the Ego expects revenge of any kind. This is where meditation and grounding during a healing process come into play. It's a working progress because healing can take several years and everyone's journey is different.

Knight of Wands has come up twice in the last two nights during this time the moon is waning and it's in Libra. The Knight of Wands has a fire and energy which describes the unfolding of a situation as the Knight of Wands is the instigator. At this time I have been studying curses and practicing them, but it could be a sign that my work has ramifications. I would assume everything in life does, but if you choose to be a witch - a child of the night then one should expect ramifications. At this point, I don't see that happening because, for those who are being cursed, it's well deserved for the pain and suffering they caused many people.

​Either way, my spirit is telling me to release and forgive, which is not an easy emotion to let go of. I'm not concerned with Karma because life is grim and at moments can be good - it is cause and effect, so you can't have one without the other in life, which is true for anyone. No one walks on water. Even now at this time while the moon is waning I can use this time to call Orobas and release or banish things in my life. So it is a matter of choice but since the card has come up twice back to back spirit is serious and wants me to reconsider. I do wonder though can the soul heal from wounds of the past and still practice black magic?

Nine of Pentacles expresses the Dark Fairy and tells the spirit of my dreams and ambitions every day. What I seek for the future. What I want for myself. Although I know I still have much healing to do I have come a long way from three years back and I have learned much in this short period. I have begun to let go of many negative feelings but now that I am past 50, my eyes no longer are shielded with illusions of the world and all its people. However, I'm confident being human and a woman I will walk with wisdom and caution, as I just only myself. One can't always expect bliss, but I do expect justice and this is where the fire is and my duality struggles. If people made a better world, all of us would have more happiness.

​The world of humans dwells in darkness and is unforgiving because of the pain and sorrow. The Dark Fairy sees man's failures and punishes those who have caused harm. Spirit knows man's soul and thoughts of wanting to bring pain and despair. I can't be a part of that, because I live here on this physical plane but using my mind is strong and I can see another world that is filled with the Sun and smell the sea salt water and hear the ocean waves. Laughter and peace I am not afraid to die to be reborn, everything comes with a price, but if I can reach another realm another place beyond the stars, then I know the journey was worth it. Spirit gave me what I have now and it's a place of stillness to work, dream, and re-create a better life for myself, at the cost of walking alone. I am okay with that I need no one else.

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