Negative Impressions take longer to forget.

The past doesn't matter isn't that what tell ourselves? If it didn't we wouldn't have these memories in our head that have a long lasting impression. As a child growing up I would say that my memories are fairly good but nothing is perfect. There are many things about the past I can say now were unbalanced and hard to forget. Friends, let me begin with this because it sets the stage with people choosing to have relationships of different kinds, but when we are children we form friends that are not good for us. Capricorns are born a bit wild and adventurous as children, because like many children we want to explore, but society is a dangerous place that children should never explore alone or wander off to far because of predators. Speaking of which, white men are by far the largest group of scum that are predators and want to sexually abuse or kill children. I had a friend named Ingrid Yamamoto, she was Japanese and Mexican, selfish, spoiled and I learned to late what a skank and horrible person she really is. Always causing trouble in school, fighting and her slut nature of having sex with boys in the 7th grade, never graduating high school, just a loser all together and I doubt she has gone far in her adult life.

One day I was walking home from her house Ingrid lived in the condos on Colima as I noticed a white older male predator driving his pick up truck, which was old and beat up. He tried to hurt me. He tried real hard to kidnap me, but I escaped fast running all the way home. A man named Tony, tall with black hair, white skinned Mexican drove a yellow truck and lived with his parents in the country wood homes never worked but drove back and forth in front of the high school everyday apprehending under age girls as he did with me. Predators are everywhere and come with smiles to seduce and hurt children. Michelle Porras a classmate once admitted to me at the age of 15 she fucked her aunt Lorraine's husband Robert and bragged about what a big dick he had. These horrible impressions I am trying to forget. I realize now Michelle must have been molested as a child other wise why would a 15 year girl behave in such a promiscuous manner? I only hope Lorraine never found out. Robert should have went to prison? Michelle did not come from a good family and she was no friend to me. Especially when she betrayed me many times with her bad behavior and telling me how my father didn't give a shit about me. Actually my father worked his whole life and his career was in children services and correctional facilities.

Actually Michelle was referring about her own father unconsciously, Manuel Porras who is now dead, thank god. A heroin junkie in and out of prison his whole life, he never supported his family, and I once witnessed him beat up two females which I thought were dead. All because Michelle started fighting with a girl named Camille in school. I don't remember what it was about, but it started as a gang war all because of Michelle. She actually said to me I better back her up. I told her NO! I will not, you started it, it's your problem not mine. The police never caught Manual and I never looked at Michelle the same way, but when your young its hard to see people clearly. She did many other bad things as we grew into adults her nasty abusive behavior and using people for money and a place to live when she married Rick. Michelle turned out to be just like that bitch of a mother of hers, Diane!! Well, I soon realized she was no friend, never was just scum and not worth my time. I soon distanced myself from her, she was bad news and a rotten human being no thanks to her sleazy bitch of mother and her junkie father Manuel. Denise Contreras, her and Michelle were best friends for awhile, until one day Denise mentioned how fucked up and dysfunctional Michelle's family is. She was right, but Denise was no better of a person than Michelle. They got tired of each real fast and were bad mouthing each other to me behind the others back.

Denise was no friend, at times she seemed genuine but many times she took her anger out on me being extremely disrespectful and verbally abusive. One thing about females we learn early on is how to fight in a vicious abusive manner. It's what society teaches us because politics knows how to tear people apart with many vices in society acting as the culprit. Everyone has a past and has done things but when I was 15 I was innocent. I never bothered anyone who didn't bothered me first but kids in school were always wanting to fight with each other, drinking, doing drugs and frankly nothing is different as adults. People look for excuse's to fight instead of being respectful and considerate. As time goes on a person can become callus because of it. One day I recall Denise being the cunt she is, calling me a slut which was funny at the time since it was her who had an abortion at 15 years of age from her 7th grade boyfriend, Richard. Denise was able to pay for the abortion herself. She was Mexican and came from a middle class family. Her mom Marie was nice and paid Denise a $50 weekly allowance to clean the house which she saved her money all the time, her parents never found out. What I find amazing is how a clinic would perform an abortion on a 15 year old girl without her parents consent?

Denise one day asked me to give her and Nicole a ride to the beauty supply store, so I did. I don't know why she didn't drive her own car but now I realize this is the way these bitches were using people all the time for their own selfish reasons. The entire time I am watching Nicole she was talking to the woman who worked there and not once did I notice she was stealing beauty products, we soon left and Nicole bragged about the $100 theft of beauty products she stole. And this was coming from a bitch who called herself a born again Christian. Never again did I both with either one of them using me so they could steal from the store instead of getting a fucken job and paying for the products!!

Sisters no one needs them at least not the ones I had. Our parents didn't have much as kids growing up but they gave us kids more than we deserved and maybe that is were the mistake falls for parents. Trying hard to make up for something that was missing. Its never a good idea to spoil your kids. When I think back on all the people I have crossed good and bad, the bad stand out and the negative memories are hard to forget. The rotten disrespectful way all of them were and probably still are. I can't speak for anyone else who practices witchcraft only myself, but if I had to guess I would say most people sway to the dark arts for protection and to learn how to defend oneself because of those who have betrayed us and those who have inflicted pain, emotionally, physically and sexual child abuse. As I have grown older I have come to realize I don't need other people in my life personally, it takes away my energy. I am NOT emotionally needy like Denise Contreras seeking friends with Gina and Kathy Mora who are ignorant, lazy and stupid bitches. Or someone like Michelle or Ingrid who are nothing but shit for human beings and trust me when I say these nasty bitches have done some disgusting shit when they were kids. Of course I have a past like anyone, but I've grown up since then and I know who I am now.

I am a Capricorn woman and you don't want to fuck with me, of what I have learned in the vast dark sea of the universe is how to curse and curse well with pain and death. I have been given certain gifts from spirit and when you open the door the knowledge and secrets of others comes easily. I take nothing for granted but I am aware of the gifts I have been given from the Gods. This life is a mere glimpse and time runs out very fast. Time can't be controlled by no man or stopped. This human existence is coming to and end quickly. I have learned much from past mistakes and all those who have crossed my life. Having people in my life is a waste of time and energy, including family, which they to have betrayed me. I don't need them because of their ignorance and lack of. People only think they need one another. It's good to have people in your life who are good and worthy, but many are not. This can sometimes be hard to see.

It would take to long for me to describe the betrayal within my own family, but I will say this, my mother was the best she loved with her whole heart and worked hard her entire life, unlike white women. She didn't know much because no one was there to teach her. Which in turn can be hurtful if you don't know things in life and why they occur, how can you teach your children? I am against women especially young women having children. It will only hurt you in the end and prevent your own dreams to being fulfilled. I would like to think the majority of people in the world want love and family, but because of the politics and the abuse of war and all the vices that are injected into society, brings the ultimate evil, "separation", then war and gangs with drugs, booze and sexual abuse is ultimate high in families and society which has torn family's apart. In addition to the domestic violence being extreme.

Now with American Pedo Trump in the White House, it's time to check out this human race and reset order because this betrayal has gone on to fucken far!! The white race has caused more damage around the world and in America than any other race to people of color and their own kin!